Starting Place

My journal fell open to the entry for my fifth day under the wings of OA. Reading it took me back to those feelings I felt then.

I wrote:

Was this a good idea? Why did I think I should start on this journey just before a holiday? I don't have a food plan yet; no sponsor; no days of recovery stacked up in reserve; just my Newcomer Chip with the engraved Serenity Prayer. This chip means a lot. It was held and meditated over by each member of the group before giving it into my keeping. The timing seems appropriate to the people on the chairs in this circle. Before a holiday, after a holiday, middle of the year - makes no difference. Getting started is what makes the difference.

So far, all I have is this: An armload of my messy life, a desperate fingertip grip on hope, Program's welcome packet, and a gnawing spiritual hunger. I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be.