Not At All Linear

Last post was in May. I said I'd do something, in a minute. Now it is July. It somehow turned into a very long minute. I got stuck.

Step One was not a linear step for me. At first glance, the Twelve Steps looked as easy as stepping stones across the shallowest part of a stream. I thought I would lightly hop and skip straight across. Instead, I slipped off the first stone and sank. It was not the shallow stream I thought it was. It was deep, and I paddled around in the dark without a flashlight.

The long dark night of Step One ended at dawn. There was no sense of having accomplished anything or solved anything. Yet, there I was, right next to the Step Two stone, so I clambered onto its broad surface.

Sitting there in the sunrise, dripping and fresh, was the most peaceful sunrise moment I have ever experienced. So this is me - the one who wanted to do it "by myself!" and succeeded only in making a big mess of it.

I've been blessed, held up, deposited safely on Step Two. There's work to do. Starting right now!!